Thoughts and Words can be a window to one's Soul. Random streams of consciousness.

Avinash: Grew up in a conservative household in a patriarchal family. So grew up almost like in a cult with an alcoholic father. Then in college this illusion shatterred, so tried to escape reality with rebelling - then in adulthood i realzied im the older sibling who had to be the head of the family and did my duty. Until recently cuando mi hermano y cuñada moved to EU as well. Now that im no longer the alpha provider of my family, i have less stress and more free time and sorta not sure what to do! Im also not academically smart, as at the time i didnt realize the importance of education and especially higher studies. Got lucky as i got a job and moved to EU about 8 years back - my manager took a risk and ive managed to secure a great job that i love, that has a career path. So im married to my job (it also helps me save money to secure my and my parents retirement - coz ive seen poverty :P ). Havnt been in serious relationship, i dont know how to flirt either. So for me relationship means someone i can be friends with who im attracted to as well.